A day full of anger...
That's what yesterday was. I'm not sure where it came from, but I must have had a lot of unexpressed rage built up. I nearly hit a co-worker at lunch. Here's how it happened.
I was sitting in the conference room eating as usual. We had the TV on and we were watching People's Court.
One of the women from upstairs came through the conference room on her way outside to smoke. As she walked behind me, SHE PUT HER FUCKING HAND ON MY SHOULDER!
Okay people, let's be very clear on this: You must have permission from Underling before you are allowed to touch him.
EVERYONE in my office knows not to put their hands on me. And this woman has been warned before.
So, I whipped around and was ready to draw my fist back when I stopped myself and started my calming down work.
The afternoon was a little better...no one else tried to touch me.
Then after work I went by my parents and visited with my father for a few hours. I was completely calm after that. I was able to come home and make dinner, eat and chat with a few friends online.
In other news: My sister and her husband are officially in Wyoming. They called last night to describe their house and tell me they'd arrived.
Well, there's really not a lot else to post here today. I mean, there are things that I could post, but I don't want to and you can't make me.
So there.
posted by Underling Revived @ 11:20 AM
6 Comments:
They may look, but they must not touch!
Still, am glad you didn't slug her!
LOL!
Hope today is a better day for you!!!!
Today has already been immesurably better. No one has bothered me at all today, and I seem to have expended all of my rage yesterday. So today I get to bask in the glow of being even tempered.
Reaching out through the Net, not touching just reaching, to say thanks for the comment in my neighborhood.
Glad calmness is restored.
I had that happen at a resturaunt once, and at an old place i used to work. It is strange how intense the anger is. I hope your better, glad you worked it out. LOL this is funny cause i have to have the same conversations with Brad. Didn't see you as sharing workplace altercations with him : )
Tim
You know, I've been thinking about it. I wish I knew how to be angry. I am never really angry. I get sad. When I do get really upset and close to anger, I tend to just get physcially ill.
...and, yet, I can be a pretty tough cookie.
I've been working really hard on letting go of my fear of strangers touching me as it seems everyone here is so touchy-feely. I have to admit, that once I find a way to let go. That feeling of being "invaded" and "vulnerable to attack" gives way to "relief" and "warmth"
Touch without malice or sexual aggression can be so healing.
Yes, I am turning into a hippie filled with New Age wisdom. However, I am drawing the line at Enya.
your right, i think Matt. I think it's about trust and space and learning to accept things thru alternative channels. it's a good thing to think about. personally i get sad after i get angry now.
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